I'm about a third of the way through ‘Steps to Knowledge’ and am trying to foster some sensitivity within myself so that I can muster an awareness of the transformation process that I’m hoping will occur.  I’ve read a number of Marshall’s books over the years and was finally motivated to tackle the Steps again after a long, 10-year, hiatus.

I think I’m sort of far enough along to the point where I look forward to what the next lesson will be.  At the beginning, it was more about disciplining myself to get up early to do the morning lesson, getting into a regimen of stillness and study.  Now I’m in the regimen.  I have a habit pattern I follow and it’s not terribly difficult to stick with.  Like the preliminary instructions say, you just need to follow the route outlined and stay on the path.

The curious-like-a-cat side of me keeps hoping I will see some indication that Knowledge is peeking through.  It’s undoubtedly too early for that but one side effect I’ve noticed, especially within the last 20 lessons or so, is that occasionally a specific lesson is very pertinent to issues that arise during that particular day.  In other words, I study the lesson and a situation comes up during the day (usually at work) that the lesson is addressing.  Almost as if my day is being subtly restructured to be embraced and benefited by the lesson of that day.  It’s cool when it happens, I thank the powers that be for their gift, and continue with the process.  A little more motivated, knowing that I’m being watched on some level.  It’s a nice feeling being helped from the other side.