This week
I completed my second complete cycle through Steps to Knowledge and have been
reflecting a bit on the effects of the practice, even at this early stage. I find I'm a bit calmer, no doubt due to all the
regular meditation. Although it did take
me awhile to calm my addled brain enough so that I could, in good conscience,
feel that I was truly meditating. I'm
anxious to start the whole process again so that I can meditate more
credibly. And tighten my focus on the
lessons. I gave myself a week's break
and will begin another cycle this Monday.
I feel
that my connection with my Teachers has deepened. I've been talking to them for over 20 years,
sort of my way of establishing and reinforcing a connection with them. They appear to have a sense of humor which tickles
me no end. I know this because of the
many ways they find to communicate back to me.
I’m a musician so they have, rather logically, used music as one of the
primary ways they use to let me know they're there. They use musical serendipity a lot. A Mozart symphony will be playing on the
radio. At the precise second the warning
beep from my seat belt goes off, a B flat that matches the B flat of the beep
will magically appear in the symphony.
This serendipity occurs at least once a week, sometimes 2 or 3
times. I’m sure they do it because they
know I will notice. A little reminder
that they’re around.
Number
sequences appear pretty regularly on my digital clocks. 44:44, 12:34.
I wake for a brief moment at 2:00 a.m., glance at my clock, and see a
sequence. It’s a small thing, granted,
but to me it feels similar to the musical serendipity. In any case, I happily choose to view it as a
petite communication from the other side.
On one of
my birthdays, a balloon floated past my car as I was driving with the words
'Happy Birthday' printed on it. Twice
this past week I reached my hand into my jacket pocket and pulled out the exact
change I needed for a purchase. I love
when that happens. Are these all
communications from my Teachers? I have
no way of knowing. But it sort of feels
like it.
It also
feels like my intuition is getting more accurate. I experience this quite a bit when I'm
driving, probably because there are so many opportunities to test my
intuition. Should I stay in this lane or
move to the next lane? Should I use a different
route to get home? All the little
decisions that arise during driving are wonderful ways to test oneself.
I can’t
say that I have experienced what Marshall’s books describe as Knowledge, that
deep sense of knowing, just yet. It’s
possible there were brief glimpses but I have no way of knowing if those were
my imagination or something more. I’m a beginner
so it’s probably too soon to have any expectations in that regard. Just keep going…I get it. Stay on the path up the mountain. The journey continues.
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